The beginning of the end is approaching us. This is the week of lab finals; needless to say, I can't wait till it's all over.

Damn it. Went out last night and it seems the dirty atmosphere has made my ugly rash worse. I'm still unsure how I got it in the first place but it was healing before last night... stupid bars....

Lent is goin pretty good, it's much easier now than the first week. I guess you grow accustomed to the absence. At least I know I have some self control unlike when I've been drinking... damn alchy! Why do I need you so?

So I've decided to take only 4 courses a term next yr, I'm just not cut out for 5. Making your schedule sure is a pain in the butt.

Today is the first day of spring. I will be inside doing my homework... the things we do for marks.

Yesterday was alright but largely a waste of time. Two movies in one day... what is that accomplishing? So the first movie I saw was Taking Lives with Ethan Hawke who basically makes the movie worth watching but the plot was nothing spectacular. Then later on, I saw Eurotrip which Kristin Kreuk looks super hot in but if that's the only reason you want to see the movie, probably not worth it since she's only in the first 15 minutes or so of the flick. Then it goes on to following around four kids going through Europe, none of which are that hot so I was quite disappointed.

I guess there's nothing else to say 'cept better days!

Spring is nearly upon us and that can mean one of two things:
1) Spring is symbolically a time of new beginnings so if you haven't been doing well lately, take this time to shift gears.
2) Finals are coming up which is typically a time of breakdowns and extreme levels of stress. Try not to let this negate the beginning of spring. Hopefully we'll be getting nicer weather than of late since people are generally happier when the sun is out.

Wow, this is a pretty positive post.... what has gotten into me? I wonder how long this will last... probably until finals start. At any rate, remember to root for the oilers. Peace and love.

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

- Nelly Furtado

Time to start training for the tourney. This is the year of redemption.

Hello all, one more thing. Ging Wu is in serious need of competent people to volunteer for our tournament May 1st. I know a few of you who read my blog are martial artists, and the worst thing is to have incompetent volunteers "forgetting" to give you points in sparring or making you spar for shorter/longer time periods than you are supposed to. So reunite! You cannot volunteer if you will be competing but if you have friends or family that will be there to watch you anyway, inform them that there are perks to volunteering. If I'm not mistaken, volunteers do not pay the admission fee, will receive a free tournament t-shirt as well as free lunch. Note that volunteers must be over 16 yrs old and able to stay a minimum of 4 hours to receive the t-shirt and lunch. The responsibilities are not so overwhelming; they will most likely be able to watch you when you compete. The time commitment is minimal, a short half hour meeting at 7:30 pm on Apr 29 and volunteers must report to the volunteer's table on the day of the tournament sometime between 8-9:15 am. If you know anyone who is interested, please ask me for a volunteer sign-up form. I will be forever indebted to anyone who volunteers. Rest assured that you will not be overworked.

So it's the day after my kung fu belt test.... I don't think it went very well but it was a good learning experience nonetheless. Although I must say, I bruise like a peach; there are several on my arms as well as a giant one on my right knee. Kind of lookin forward to tomorrow even though that means gettin up at 6 for a morning lab; kung fu should be good, I'm hoping my sifu will let me test some of the newer people so I can get some experience in that field. Nothin else really goin on right now.... just tryin to gear up for finals. Better days.

You do the crime, your nuts are mine. - Starsky

Ok, a couple of "housekeeping" items as my eng prof would say.

I am giving up pop and fruitopia for lent starting last tues. I'm not particularly religious, just doing this to try to better myself. Although I don't really understand the implications of lent, a friend gave me the general idea that you are supposed to give up somethin you've grown quite accustomed to in order to see that you can live without it. I encourage everyone who reads this blog... so probably 3 people.... to give something up, but don't choose somethin that you don't really use that often and, on the other hand, not somethin that you think you'd be miserable without. For instance; I would not give up cigarettes cause I dont smoke and not tv cause I just don't have the will power.

For those of you who are unaware, today is international women's day so be sure to show your appreciation by planting a firm slap on the buttocks. "Those feminist chicks" especially enjoy this.

One more thing, I stained my fingers in chem lab today so be aware that is why my hands look dirtier than usual.

Have you ever cared about someone so much that it feels like you can't breathe when they're not around? You walk around aimlessly all day barely able to present yourself as a normal human being, struggling to construct intelligible sentences and all you can think about is the next time you're going to see said person? You don't know when it happened but it's gotten to the point where you feel like you literally cannot survive without them in your life? The room spins when they walk in and you cannot for the life of you stop the incessant trembling when they talk to you? Your heart beats so fast when they are around that you feel as if it's going to explode and splatter your miserable insides all over the place?

Ya, me neither.

So lately I've been feeling really lost. Ever since junior high, my mom has been pushing the idea of bein an optometrist on me and I gotta say the money's not bad. But when you've focused on the same goal for so long you lose sight of other options. I do recall a short period in gr 12 when I asked myself what I really wanted to do and I drew a complete blank so I shrugged and continued down the optometry route by gettin myself into science. I'm not sure exactly what's changed but I'm no longer content with this. It seems trying to please others is all in vain. Perhaps I'm only realizing this now and subsequently thinking I need to think about what I want. Back to square one.