11am Apr 21st

Went to the mall for just an hour today; lookin for a new perfume... nothin smelled so great that I just had to have it so if anyone has any suggestions, that's what the tagboard's for. This weekend's gonna suck since I must devote it to studying for my first midterm this semester. Remember, I have to do better this term...

when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

- evanescence "my immortal"

First midterm in a week, then it never ends....

I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart

- Sheryl Crow "The First Cut Is The Deepest"

Chinese Element: Wood

Like the rings of a tree circle out and expand through the years, so too do those born under the Chinese Astrology Element of Wood. You Wood personalities seek chances for growth and for renewal in all you do, 'branching out' (excuse the pun!) whenever possible. Your open, expansive mind makes you a compassionate and generous friend, colleague and ally. You understand the inherent value of what you and those around you possess, and your confidence allows you to act upon your beliefs.

While your strength forms the backbone of any social group or partnership you're a part of, you could have a tendency to be a bit too systematic in your thinking, and sometimes your passivity allows others to overwhelm and inhibit you. Don't let yourself be lost in a vast forest, an anonymous tree among millions of others. Make your mark on the world -- you're especially adept at business ventures.

So I skipped yet another organic help session but I sort of have an excuse this time.... whereas last week, I just didnt feel like takin the train back to univ from edm centre then eventually have to go back to edm centre. Anyhoo, my excuse is it's chinese new year's eve; if that's not good enough, I also had to stay up till 12 last night finishin a bio assignment then woke up at 6 this morning cause I had an 8am lab. Leave me alone, I have a headache and I smell like organic chem *shudders*

Tomorrow, I'm goin to lion dance at the palace casino. How am I going to kill an hour (5-6pm)? Not enough time to go home, maybe I should do sch work.... bleh. We'll see how that goes.... Until next time, stay alert stay safe.

Welps, I have a spare right now and instead of doin somethin productive with it, I've decided to sit around and sulk at the fact that I have to take yet another term of organic chem. My first 163 lab is tomorrow and even if I didn't tell you this, I think you'd pick up on my utter lack of will to live. I completely wasted this past weekend and am now falling behind... it's a terrible feeling but still, I sulk.

On a lighter note, this sat is the chinatown lion dance parade.... now I'm still not sure about my level of involvement with this since sifu charlie had mentioned that he wanted me to go to the agricom demo. I guess it doesn't really matter either way. Even before that, this thurs is chinese new year and I will be using my legal age for good instead of evil since the club wants me to be a part of the lion dance for palace casino. That's about all for now. Toodles.

Yest was great. Sure, it could've been better but I'm not complaining. I didn't screw up on the demo, I actually got student of the year so that was pretty cool. On top of that, I got some sweet presents. Thanks everyone. Went to manhattan which was lame as suspected so then we managed to convince everyone to go to rum but by the time we got there, the line wasn't moving at all. Eventually, we went to the casino which whomped cause it was just filled with old ppl. I still think if we had just went to rum in the first place, we would've gotten in and everythin would've been super. But I'm happy with the decision I made cause I chose who over where and I can't say I regretted anythin. Best birthday ever.

Tomorrow's gonna be quite the hassle. I know it's gonna be my birthday so I should be happy but what's pissing me off is I have a decision to make and I'm no good at those. Gotta be at ging wu at 230, leave for mirama at 430, somehow get ada to do my hair, demo and dinner till 10ish. Here's where the problem comes in, we're goin to manhattan club which was fine yest because I wasn't gonna invite anyone. I was perfectly fine with it bein ada's friends and ging wu ppl but today, I started thinkin I wanted some of my other friends to come and I called around and no one wants to go to manhattan. This is pretty stupid. On one hand I'm kinda thinkin "it's my birthday, you're not comin for the bar you should be comin for me." But if I'm really honest with myself, I don't wanna go to manhattan either. I really don't wanna pay for that long cab ride home, if I go to rum then one of my friends will prolly drive me home since it's pretty close. I don't know what to do, maybe I'm blowin this thing outta proportion.

Linda thinks Olga is pretty, pass it on.

Bah, I've sorta been thinkin bout the finances and the earliest I'll be able to buy a car is end of aug. This whomps.

Hmm, it seems that it is one week from my bday. Ging wu chinese new year banquet is badly timed in my opinion but it shouldn't be too bad. The only thing is there are ppl that I do wanna spend my bday with and yet don't feel comfortable with them bein at my demo. What I really wanna do is just take everyone out for dinner but I am currently budgeting towards gettin a car so that's a bummer.

Welps, I'm currently in stat lab and already regretting coming.... My stat class was cancelled today so I could've just went to biol and went home at 12 but no, I decided to stay for the two hour spare and here I am with nothing to show for it. Damn stat lab... if it wasn't the first of the term, I definitely wouldn't have come. It's doubtful I'll be coming to any more of these, I'll most likely just do my lab assignments during spares.... Now I'm sure you're all glued to your seat reading this pathetic excuse for a blog but you know what, I'm bored and typing is actually filling the time so nuts to you! The ta has arrived but it seems she is unable to figure out how to get her comp to show up on the overhead. I'm sorely disappointed.

See I don't know why I liked you so much
I gave you all of my trust
I told you I loved you
Now that's all down the drain
Ya put me through pain
I wanna let you know what I feel

Fuck what I said, it don't mean shit now
Fuck the presents, might as well throw 'em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I don't want you back

- Eamon "I don't want you back"

Schoolwork is starting to pile up....

I'm an idiot.

Evening ladies and gents, today was super cold. The walk from my house to the bus stop ranges from 5-10 min and somehow, in that time frame, I managed to lose my timetable which was in my back pocket.... good thing I glanced at where my classes were last night. Only had two classes today, both profs seem alright. I really don't want to walk in the snow again... maybe I'll go to sch an hour and a half early.... see, that way I get a ride for part of the trip; still thinkin bout it, the downside is I lose an hour of sleep.

Went to kung fu tonight, I am seriously out of shape. Gotta start the stance training up again. Although, I did let out some frustration just by training.... Somehow it's my fault that some forms for some scholarship my mom put me in got lost.

Remember oregon trail? or cross country canada? Those were back in the days of carefree elem... it seems that's all we used to do... now I'm workin with "suspect cancer causing agents." I miss elem.

It's the honest ones you want to watch out for, because you can never predict when they're going to do something incredibly... stupid. - Pirates of the Caribbean

No fear. No distractions. The ability to let that which does not matter truly slide. - Fight Club

I actually have a couple other resolutions... but I try not to make ones I don't think I can keep... these are kinda borderline. But I guess I'll list them for the sake of trying to make them concrete: get better marks in sch and get into as few fights with the parents as possible.

My new year's resolution: get rid of this belly I've been forming since sept. I'm not workin for washboard abs, just my old flat stomache will do. I miss it....

Some upcoming dates this month:
15th - my mom and chris' birthday
17th - ada's and my birthday/ging wu banquet
22nd - chinese new year
25th - chinatown lion dance parade

Since I am a banana (yellow on the outside, white on the inside), some of these chinese related dates may be wrong. If you know for sure that one is, pls tag my board letting me know and I'll change it asap.

Also, best wishes to you and yours in this new year. I hope that, in twelve months, 2004 ends with as few regrets as possible.