this place is so empty
my thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
sometimes it's so crazy
that nothing can save me

- sum 41

2005 is fast approaching, I'm lookin forward to it. To recap this yr... I had three resolutions: get better marks in sch, get back my once flat stomache, and get into less fights with the folks. I kept 2 outta 3, not too shabby. This means for the upcoming yr:

1. get back into shape
2. get even better marks in sch
3. become the "cool one" with the little kids at kung fu (should be easier to teach/babysit them if they like me)

I'm actually very proud of myself with the way I've handled things with my parents, for the most part. So I'll be sure to keep that up.

Merry Christmas

Finally wrote my last exam on monday. Went shopping and saw ocean's twelve afterwards; the shopping was a bit of a letdown considering I didn't really see anything worth buying, ocean's twelve wasn't as good as the original but still was not too shabby. Anyhoo, I guess I wanted to make a wish list. Here goes:

1. honda accord coupe v6 fully loaded (in about 2 1/2 yrs from my mom hopefully)
2. iBook (in about 1 yr from my dad)
3. iPod (to match the iBook)
4. samsung camera flip phone
5. small black wallet
6. dvd's: collateral, ocean's eleven, zoolander, american beauty, bourne identity, hero, pirates of the carribean... I'm sure there's more I can't think of right now..
7. cd's: gwen stefani, jay-z vs. linkin park
8. warm winter gloves (warm being the key word since mine are nice looking but the wind cuts right through them)
9. body shop lotions
10. digicam (maybe buyin on boxing day)

It's really not even practical for me to get an iPod since I have a perfectly good md walkman or the camera phone since I just bought my cell not even 5 months ago but ya, I had nothin else to put on the list. Fortunately.

I've never looked forward to a monday so much... it's gotten to the point where instead of wishin for more time to study, I just want to get it over with. I'm so ready to start my break.... the thing I've missed the most is spending several hours shopping. A luxury I can't afford during exams.

So I've basically given up on studying for today... bout to call it a night and go to sleep at a decent hour. For some reason, I've been stayin up till 2 or 3am the past few nights and I know messin up my sleep schedule like that cannot be a good thing. At least it'll all be over soon.. less than a week actually. The thing about bein up so late is there's this sense of peacefulness and loneliness intermingled. I'm tryin to combat the latter feeling by trying to get myself into the christmas spirit, but I just feel so .... solely responsible for my actions... it's depressing. I've just gotten to the point where it is so blatantly obvious to me that no one can help me. This probably doesn't make a lot of sense... I guess it's kinda like when I was younger, I would get sick and my mom would say she wished she could do it for me (be sick and miserable). Of course, it wasn't possible and the same thing applies now. You can have all these ppl surrounding you but they can't go through your struggles for you.

December is upon us and that can only mean two things.
1. finals
2. the sweet release of christmas break

A more detailed look at my schedule:
dec 2nd-4th: lab finals
8th: last day of classes
15th-20th: finals

All I live for is 12 noon on the 20th to come. Better days.

Hello loyal reader, not a whole lot to blog about.... startin to feel the stress for finals. I actually have my biol lab final this sat which is really not cool. I've developed some better study habits this term but in the process, I think I may have lost my ability to cram. Last yr, if my lab final was 3 days away, that's when I'd start... fast forward to present day and I'm thinkin I'm so screwed for sat, we'll see if I can push through.